When Suzie Homemaker Attacks: Weight Loss

I Will Do This!
I Can Do This!
Oy....I want a cookie....

This is the battle that happens internally every day. But today, it will change....no, really.

The purpose of this page is to serve as motivation for me to lose weight. For me, I have battled with a weight problem since I was a kid. I am at the point in my life where enough is enough. I know it will be rough. But, I just can't keep living the way that I am. Before I start my journey, let me be completely honest about my goals.

Height: Almost 6ft!
Current Weight: 306.8 lbs...boo
Goal Weight: 135 -140 lbs.

So, I am making a list of a 176 reasons that I want to loose weight. Why 176 reasons? Because I have 176 pounds to lose.

To live longer
To be happy
To be active
To not need naps
To feel good
To see my toes
To touch my toes
To try yoga
To enjoy what I see in the mirror
To Go on Roller Coasters
Shopping in regular stores
Buy a bikini
To not have to say "plus"
To be able to wear bracelets
To have smaller hands than my husband
To one day be pregnant...and people know it.
To prove other's wrong
To wear a mini skirt
To not be sweaty
To not feel like everyone is staring
To not be another statistic
To be able to take a real bath!
To go hang gliding
To walk without my thighs rubbing together. ew
TO be self confident
To wear short shorts
To ride bikes
To not muffin top
So my collarbone shows
To only have 1 chin
To wrap a towel all the way around
To be able to take full body pictures, not just shoulders up
To do a kart-wheel
To cut my grocery bill in half
To be able to buy something from Victoria Secret
To where high heels...without the shaking
To be carried around by my husband
To climb a tree
To play volleyball... again
To lay on the beach and look good
So I don't develop diabetes
So my stomach doesn't stick out
So I can wear skinny jeans
So I can take a hike
So I can try surfing
So my waist is actually a waist
So my stomach is flat
To beat my biggest demon
To Jump
To work out in just a sports bra...and be okay with it
To look cute in a winter jacket, not like the Michelin Man
To do a back bend
To surprise my high-school classmates
To be able to share clothes with friends
To not always feel like the "fat one" in a group
To not look at people and think, "Am I bigger?"
To always take the stairs
To walk up stairs without panting
To run a marathon
To get rid of my arm flaps
To enjoy eating healthy foods
To not wear wide shoes
To quit finding new stretchmarks
So when my husband hugs me, his arms go all the way around
To buy clothes outside of Lane Bryant
To have Energy!
To wear panty hose without control top
To not want to wear Spanx with EVERYTHING
To walk by someone without brushing up against them
To not have to check the weight limits on things
To indulge myself with a treat that's actually a treat, not a staple
To not have to hide behind long hair
To be able to take a picture once, not 3x because I look fat
To not hear fat jokes
To not get looks from sales associates
To be able to wear clothes without an "X" in its' size
To be able to have blood drawn easily
To not have heart disease
To be able to jump
To canoe
To have normal blood pressure
To be in a queen size bed and feel like it
To not crave food
To not hear comments from little kids
To not lock a seat belt in a car
To wear calf-high boots
To learn to cope with life without food
To not be identified as the "heavy set girl"
To show those around me it can be done
To fulfill a promise to myself
To wear my husbands shirt and have it feel like a man's shirt
To wear a sleaveless shirt and be okay
To wear a t-shirt without a tank top underneath
To use the normal cuff for blood pressure
To be able to play with my little brothers without being winded
To be able to stand without sucking it in
To not be all hips
To not have a pouch
To wear a shoulder strap purse
To feel sexy
To be sexy
To not have to hear, "you're not that big" from friends
To look cute at Halloween in a real costume, not one I have made.
To live past 40
To live past 50
To be in control of my life
To be more confident
To not feel like an outsider at the gym
To kayak
To wear something other than a high waisted panty
To be a runner
To WANT To exercise
TO know that I haven't wasted my time on the earth
To use an elliptical without feeling like jelly
TO try dancing
To hear "you look great" and know they mean it
To not have to use the big stall in the bathroom
To not be afraid to sit in a chair
To see my shoulder blades again
To fit in a two man tent
To fit in the back seat of a car
To be able to be pregnant some day...Not NOW.
To be there for my future children
To enjoy clothes shopping
To not have to lie about how much I weigh
To be able to wear a dress...not a Mumu
To stand on the scale and not be afraid
To check "active" on lifestyles
To be happy about who I am
To not feel like I have let myself go
To be a hot wife
To be a hot mom ....some day
To have a normal BMI
TO not have to justify my weight
To not be ruled by a number
To be comfortable in pants without an elastic
To wear low waisted pants
To not look like a sausage
To eat dinner at a restaurant without an appetizer
To pay less for clothes
To prove to myself I can
To see my spine
To have a SMALL butt
To not feel fluffy
To be able to see my hip bone
To not have love handles
To be able to cut out refined sugar
To retrain my tastes
To eat well
To enjoy what I eat
To eat when I need to, not when I want to
To have a higher self esteem
To break an addiction
To be able to sit and hold my knees
To use a hammock and actually relax
To not avoid mirrors
To explore the world without wheezing
To feel alive
To travel
To be self motivated
So that I can go on the metro without touching people
So the waiter doesn't ask me what I will have for desert
So I like eating well
So I can have nice legs
So I can take a dance class
So I can feel like a million bucks
So I have no excuses to hold me back
So I inspire others
So I don't have to watch myself slowly die...morbid but true
So I don't have to sneak snacks
So my brothers don't always remember me as fat
So I can buy clothes without trying it on
To CHANGE my life
To IMPROVE my life
To show myself that I CAN DO THIS
To FINALLY beat this BATTLE!!!!!

After writing all of my reasons down, I can actually say that I am really excited! I can't wait to permanently change my life!

If you need support during your journey, please send me a message or comment. Don't every feel ashamed of needing support. You can do this! IT won't be easy, but at least you have me!!!!

xoxo

Suzie